Saturday, December 1, 2012

Someday, For Sure :)


I know someday I will find that someone who will see me as attractive eventhough I'm not ideally beautiful. Someone who will smile because of my laugh. Someone who will tell me that I look better without make-up. Someone who will tell me that being moody is not good but he will try to understand. Someone who's willing to have dinner with me because I'm stressed. Someone who'll scold me that I eat too much sweets but then still gives me time to eat some. Someone who knows more constellations than me. Someone who sings and someone who plays guitar, piano and violin or any musical instrument as long as he plays more than one of it. Someone who's intelligent in certain specialization, may it be science, math or english. Someone who knows how to understand. Someone who's compassionate. Someone who's willing to invite me in attending an early morning sunday mass. Someone who will tell me to visit the blessed sacrament to pray. Someone who'll remind me to Pray often. 
I will find someone who will stop texting me because he tells me I need to study. Someone who will make me stop facebooking because I have piles of homeworks to finish. Someone who asks what am I doing and where am I at, only because he's concerned about my safety. Someone who keeps on reminding me that life is beautiful, to be yourself, be positive and Trust God above all. I will find someone who's more inlove with his faith than how he loves me. Someone who concerns the goodness of my life and not the luxury of pleasure. Someone who hurts me because he wants me to learn. Someone who says sorry. Someone I could talk to about my thoughts about the world. Someone who understands that sometimes I need to be quiet and be with myself. Someone who tells me who he really is, and what his dreams are. Someone who's willing to share his cries and laughs. Someone who pinches my cheeks and tell me it's fat. Someone who hugs me because either Im crying too much or I'm too happy. Someone who will tell me I'm good at this and someone who'll tell me what I'm bad at or what I need to improve. Someone I could tell my parents to that I waited for this person for so long. Someone I could share flying lanterns to. Someone that could take me on a date and have picnic on a rooftop and have stargazing. Someone who's willing to eat cupcakes with me. Someone who'll understand that I need my things and schedules organize. Someone who suprises me with flowers and who pursues me through songs. Someone who's sweet. Someone who isn't afraid to tell me his weaknesses. Someone who shares about random stuffs. Someone who can become a good friend, a lover, a brother and a father. Someone who listens to my complaints and rants. Someone who will hug me whenever I'm about to have tantrums.
Someone that inspires me.  Someone who truly LOVES me<3 
I know that I will meet that someone. I know for sure. By the time I'll be able to meet him, I'll no longer hold any pride within me, I'll surely let my feelings show. I'll let my guard down. I will be willing to trust and get hurt. 
I believe God is setting that perfect time to meet that perfect someone. But since, that moment hasn't come to the present, I hold on to these ideas and continue praying up until he comes along :) <3

Friday, July 27, 2012

You'll be someone special Forever

You will always be my reason of Happiness.

You make my worries go away and make my dark days bright
You're that person who makes me happy and my heart filled with delight
The world may give me pain but you lift me up
You tell me things to make me realize the mistakes I make
You hurt me many times already but then did I realize, you also cared for me.

You wanted me to be Happy; One thing that I always wanted you to feel for me.
I need not to beg for your love, Your friendship and concern is enough.
If by fate you'll be forever there beside me, I'll Thank God for that special gift.
The world has plans for both of us and future might make you far from me,
I hope God will give me someone like you, someone who's there to understand me, the real me.
I love you maybe because, You know me, you understand me, I don't know myself but you're there to remind me who I really am.

You make me remember how beautiful Life is, How wonderful it is to be worry-free. To Just be Happy No matter what. To be Content. To not just make me realize that Life is Beautiful, but to be able to live it too.
Life has a lot more to give, and that you constantly remind me that whatever happens Just be happy. Smile ~ It's more beautiful that way.

You may never tell me I am Beautiful But Indirectly You do.
Each care, gives me more confidence about myself, more security that I may be Imperfect but then again, I will not make it as a burden to be happy.
Having the beauty that the people idolizes doesn't make me happy. I believe having people like you does :)

I don't know if i'm inlove or If i'm inspired. I just know that, I am Happy.
This may be temporary but then I know the memories will stay. It will, for sure

-mOnaii Gikilig :)


Saturday, March 31, 2012

I was In love Or so I thought..

Yesterday. Yes. Yesterday I got hurt, unconsciously. And all the pain showed up today. He made me fall for him. I never asked him to be my friend nor to be close to me. But he did. He was sweet, caring, and everything ideal. And most of all, he understood me. I falled for him because he showed me these things. He showed me sweetness no man would ever do. He was perfect. I thought I was the only special he had.
There she was, the girl he loved. The girl he made special. The girl in his heart. I guess I got struck with my friend's question about why our hearts feel pain when we are broken-hearted when our emotions are controlled by our hypothalamus. I could never answer directly. Because although I know why, I would never agree. Because I feel hurt in my heart. I felt deep pain in my chest. No matter how I knock it out, it would never go away. The pain stays. The pain lingers. But I never cried. Because I didn't invest in anything. I just hallucinated, that's why I got hurt. That's why it made me all distracted. I know i'll move on soon. Maybe a day or 2. But never would I forget the feeling of being special, of being understood but being fooled by his actions. I was wrong again and again. Why did I even Hoped in the first place? he showed me such stimulus I could not resist. He showed me things I could never find in anybody. He is special. I am not for him.
Make me move on fast. I need not to be distracted. I have responsibilities. Pain is part of Life. THIS I must accept.

T_T

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Exact titles in my head won't fit here ..

When I fall in love. I should never get hurt.
I guess that's what I wanted, inside my head, inside my heart nothing more. Ceasing away from pain. Life as always has been quite rude to me. Do I need a boyfriend? Or am I just jealous that others have their own? Or is it just because I'm proceeding to the next psycho-social stage?? Ohoii. I don't know. Everytime I tend to like someone, i just don't see them as someone who's going to like me. :(
People often say that someone will eventually just arrive to your life.. But then, how will I suppose to react or even know if his there? Life is so not fair sometimes.
I want to make my summer memorable. Being 18 next next month is not something I thought would be special, but then here I am, waiting for that date to come. :(
My head is distracted again. :(
I just want it to be stable, to be focus, to be determined, not like this. I feel dumb :(

Dear Blog of mine, I love you forever. :) Thank You.