I don't know what to feel anymore..

Sometimes I get sad about myself. I'm just not that fortunate to be that beautiful to have the guy I like be attracted to me. I am beautiful, but not as attractive as any other girls out there. I'm not bringing myself down. I'm just facing reality that whatever I do, I always feel inferior whenever I get along with people who have their love of their lives with them. It's as if I see myself as a wallflower and nobody would bother to notice. There are things that we should be satisfied about but then again, there are also things that we want too. Life can be harsh, you know?  :(

Whenever I see the guy that I want or I have crush on, I would always end up staring at them at a distance, stalking at their profiles, and so many little and petty things I do. I don't let them notice my attention, because at the first place, they would never notice me. 

It has always been like this, I tend to like them then I suddenly know, Everybody likes them as well. Where do I put myself to? The freshmen league of having a crush on him? :(

I'm here to express what's in my head and in my emotions. It sometimes bother me in a least, but most often it bother me so much, I'd breakdown . :(

Life. Ciao*